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Ever heard the saying....my house is clean because my computer is broke?? That would be the case here if my computer crashed lol I am not that addicted to the computer but I do let my apartment go sometimes not realizing I have been on the computer for hours....I used to hate spending so much time on computers, I don't know what happened. I think it is was the election lol all the damn blogging, mostly on myspace though.
Next week I start training for my new job, I really want to work but I know once I start working I wont want to work haha isn't that how it always goes? Plus i got to pay for child care which will be about $200 a month just to work about 25 hours a week, and that is way cheap for child care and I am lucky because it is my best friends aunt watching him that I have known since I was 16 and she has a 4 and 3 year old so she all the toys and playground outside, but her UNCOVERED pool does make me nervous, pools and babies make me a nervous wreck. I cringe when I think about it. But he will be fine, just sad to not be be with him 24/7 even though this is what I wanted. Life's a biatch!
Relaxing watching The Wiggles
I am really getting sick of people saying black people are only voting for Obama because he is black, they think they dont know the issues or really care about issues, they just want a black man in office. I personally think that is VERY ignorant and ummm racist in a way. What about all the white people that never vote and that are only voting for McCain so a black man isnt elected? How come no one ever brings that up? I guess it is assumed that white people know all this political stuff so they will make an educated vote, so white people must be the informed voter and black people are the uninformed?? Very, very ignorant
and dont get me wrong, I have said things that are very racist, just like I know every race does, I dont care who you are, you have made an racist statement. Obama and this whole election has really opened my eyes to realize we are not as different as we think. Obama will do a lot more for the country then just deal with the war, economics, healthcare, etc. He is united the many races that live together in the US, he is breaking down a huge barrier and I am all for it.
Something VERY interesting I found...
from the New Yorker
»During the 2000 campaign, on MSNBC's "Hardball," a young woman asked McCain why her father, a doctor, should be "penalized" by being "in a huge tax bracket." McCain replied that "wealthy people can afford more" and that "the very wealthy, because they can afford tax lawyers and all kinds of loopholes, really don't pay nearly as much as you think they do." The exchange continued:
Young woman: Are we getting closer and closer to, like, socialism and stuff?. . .
McCain: Here's what I really believe: That when you reach a certain level of comfort, there's nothing wrong with paying somewhat more.
For her part, Sarah Palin, who has lately taken to calling Obama "Barack the Wealth Spreader," seems to be something of a suspect character herself. She is, at the very least, a fellow-traveller of what might be called socialism with an Alaskan face. The state that she governs has no income or sales tax. Instead, it imposes huge levies on the oil companies that lease its oil fields. The proceeds finance the government's activities and enable it to issue a four-figure annual check to every man, woman, and child in the state. One of the reasons Palin has been a popular governor is that she added an extra twelve hundred dollars to this year's check, bringing the per-person total to $3,269. A few weeks before she was nominated for Vice-President, she told a visiting journalist—Philip Gourevitch, of this magazine—that "we're set up, unlike other states in the union, where it's collectively Alaskans own the resources. So we share in the wealth when the development of these resources occurs." Perhaps there is some meaningful distinction between spreading the wealth and sharing it ("collectively," no less), but finding it would require the analytic skills of Karl the Marxist.
»Oh, and Foxnews posted this video in attempt to make Biden look stupid, but it makes me like him even more, out of all 4 candidates is is the realest, just very open and honest with everything he says, nothing is sugar coated.
and another link that is interesting
http://embeds.blogs.foxnews.com/2008/10/26/alaskas-biggest-paper-backs-obama/
Interesting McCain said this...
During the 2000 campaign, on MSNBC’s “Hardball,” a young woman asked him why her father, a doctor, should be “penalized” by being “in a huge tax bracket.” McCain replied that “wealthy people can afford more” and that “the very wealthy, because they can afford tax lawyers and all kinds of loopholes, really don’t pay nearly as much as you think they do.” The exchange continued:
Young woman: Are we getting closer and closer to, like, socialism and stuff?. . .
McCain: Here’s what I really believe: That when you reach a certain level of comfort, there’s nothing wrong with paying somewhat more.
I am luckily in one of the 31 states that is doing early voting so I am taking advantage of it and going today :) Funny that me and my republican friend are going together hehe Let's just put it this way, we dont talk abotu politics together because she takes it WAY to personal so it is weird were going together.
You know, at first when I saw this I thought, "wow, this is really cool" sad to see it, but cool that I got to. Well I go to foxnews.com today, I check them to see the negative stuff about Obama and I go to cnn.com for the regular unbiased stuff. But that's not what I want to talk about :) I saw the video on the home page of foxnews.com saying "POW video released!" and it made me realize McCain is using this as an advantage, he is USING the fact that he was a POW and getting people to feel bad for him or maybe trying to get military to relate to him? I am not stripping away his heroism by any means, but I think it's sad that he has to stoop so low to get votes. Sorry, but it is negative when your using it to get something. Most soldiers are very humble about their war experience, VERY humble. My husband doesn't even like when people come up and thank him for his service, he doesn't feel like he did anything, he was just doing his job. I think this is just stooping very low for the republicans.
Really, if you want to talk McCain being a POW, we can also talk about how he IS a POW, he was held captive for 5 years and tortured. And now he wants to be president?? I think being in control of the US Army would be the best revenge for him, who's to say he doesn't want revenge?
Here's the video, and please don't think I am being negative about his military experience, I think the video should touch a nerve on everyone, it is sad to see him like that. I just don't think it's right to use this, 2 weeks before Nov. 4th and the French just happen to release....I don't think so.
And make sure you watch this one and visit the website, it's like they were reading my mind :) http://therealmccain.com/butler
"To see McCain resort to playing the POW card when answering legitimate questions, in my mind, cheapens that experience. And by cheapening his own experience in war, he degrades all of our experiences in war. He turns the horrific incidents we've all seen, touched, smelled, and felt into a lame excuse to earn political points. And it dishonors us all." -- Brandon Friedman, a veteran of both Iraq and Afghanistan
Playing outside in the nice autumn weather at Grandma's
Adrien and my bro Robbie, of course Adrien couldnt leave the pumpkin alone long enough to get a good pic
My 14.5 month old in size 3T clothes and being grumpy...chunky monkeyI feel like I have been so focused on the upcoming election and doing all my research that I haven't stopped to think about our soldiers fighting overseas. I do think about them alot, but I used to more, I feel bad. I feel like people aren't really focusing on a lot of important issues going on right now. I feel like money is the only thing on everyone's mind, it's all McCain AND Obama want to talk about. I don't feel like the wars have had as much attention as they deserve, honestly, I feel like the soldiers are the main people that this election will effect, not "Joe the plumber". Their lives are based on what the president decides, I mean, the president is their boss technically. I wonder what people who have no association with the military think of when they are choosing who they will vote for?? I wonder if they consider the soldiers, I wonder if the war even matter as much to others?? I am not saying that you don't care if your not married to a soldier or have someone you love in the military, because I know people do care they care alot, I just wonder how many people actually think about it and how often. Is it different when it's a part of your life or when you have no idea what it's like? I just don't want our soldiers dieing in Iraq when there is no real reason to be there. Every soldier I have talked to agrees, my husband who has seen it first hand in both countries, Iraq and Afghanistan thinks the same, he felt he was in Afghanistan for a reason and felt the opposite in Iraq. I think when Obama uses the word "change" it means something different for everyone, for me it means changing the war, saving soldiers from tragic deaths and injuries, preventing families from mourning, it's time to stop all this.
Just take a minute and think about all of the lives lost, whether they be American and foreign troops or even innocent Iraqi's and Afghan's and think of all the soldiers who have been injured and feel misplaced in the world, they did it all for US, makes me so proud of our country and the bravery or our men and woman, it's really amazing.
So I know you have all seen the commercial McCain's campaign has put out calling Obama dishonerable because he said "....just air-raiding villages and killing civilians." Well or course thats not what he really said if McCain put it out there, duh. So here is the the WHOLE comment he made...
Obama (August 2007): "We've got to get the job done there and that requires us to have enough troops so that we're not just air-raiding villages and killing civilians, which is causing enormous problems there."
It is happening, civilians die all of the time in Iraq and Afghanistan because of AMERICAN soldiers, I dont care how much pride you have in the US Military, but face the facts. And I am not saying it is done purposely, so dont try to misconstrue what I say either. And so you know, so far in 2008 1,445 civilians have been killed in Afghanistan by both militants and the foreign troops including the US.
And here is something I copy and pasted from a site
"Ladies and gentlemen, your kitchen table is like mine. You sit there at night before you put the kids -- after you put the kids to bed and you talk, you talk about what you need. You talk about how much you are worried about being able to pay the bills. Well, ladies and gentlemen, that's not a worry John McCain has to worry about. It's a pretty hard experience. He'll have to figure out which of the seven kitchen tables to sit at."
Joe Biden
I was reading my past entries and you can definately see the Libra in me, I cant make my mind up about Ryan hehe do I love him or not?? Of course I love him, I just get really mad when I am mad...something I work on a lot. I am actually extremely depressed about this deployment next year, I wish they would have told us about it 3 months before the date instead of giving us all of this time to think about it. I almost feel like I dont allow myself to be the way I was before he deployed last time, almost like I am scared for things to go back to normal because I know he is just going to leave again, make sense? Dont get me wrong, we are happy and get along great (except for that one week..) but I do feel like we are different couple now than what we were 3 years ago. Maybe it was inevitable that we would change as a couple with the deployment or not?? Maybe Adrien is what makes it so different?? It's so complicated when you raise a baby for the first 8 months of it's life by yourself, but then you know you are married but you have the mindset of a single mom and then your husband gets thrown into the mix...ok I am confusing myself....
My whole point of thinking about the deployment comes from seeing that my friends husband deployed last night to Iraq for a year. He was only home for a year since his last year long deployment. They have been married for 3 years and desperately want a baby. She has had 3 miscarriages that I know about within the past few months and now they have to just completey put life on hold for a year and she has to sit there and wonder if they will ever have a baby and has a whole year taken away to even try and the wait continues for them. I just think it is so unfair and it really highlights the sacrifices that military families make. When it comes to me I dont make a big deal about my sacrifices because I feel like a strong person, life goes on, but it does break my heart when I hear someone else's story, I always feel like they have a worse story than mine. Atleast I was blessed to get pregnant, even though I spent the entire pregnancy without my husband. Atleast he could come home for the birth and be by my side then and meet his baby boy, even though he only had 2 weeks. I see it as atleast we got as much as we did, I'm very thankful for that. This war just sucks big time and I cant wait for a change and I cant wait to have my husband back, for good.
Time for an update I guess :) Not much to update though....Ryan has been gone since the 6th for work. He is in Louisiana until the 29th teaching soldiers about morale and how to handle being deployed. We had an FRG meeting about a week ago and got the word that Ryan will be deploying for one year on July 2009, I dont know an exact date as of yet and I probably wont know until were closer to July. Him being gone right now is kind of getting me depressed about this deployment already. This time I will be living by myself with Adrien, last time I had a roomate half of the time and then my parents for the other half. So this time will be quite different, but we will get through it. I cant believe he has to miss ayear of Adrien's life though. He already missed the first 8.5 months now he has to miss a really fun time when he's says those funny things and does those silly things that 2 year olds do. Weird that Adrien will be 3 when it's all over.
Well onto a less depressing subject....ADRIEN. My big boy is getting so big! He now has SEVENTEEN teeth in his little mouth. They are literally popping up everyday, I cant believe it. Thankfully he is a great teether, not fussy at all. He has acquired the biggest attitude ever though. He is my mini me :) His personality is so much like mine, it's so funny, but not funny at the same time. He screams as loud as he can then falls to the floor when I take something from him, no lie, it's pretty ridiculous. I have to control the laughter when he throws himself at the couch or when he bangs his head on the floor to get attention. But I guess he is just learning his emotions and seeing how far he can push me. Other than the attitude he has learned he has gotten pretty good with his words. He says cookie everytime he gets a cookie or a cracker (they look the same), he knows what his baba (bottle) is and asks for it when he is tired. He has known mama and dada for a while now. We recently house sitted at my moms and he said doggy clear as day when the dogs came in the room. His thing that has been doing for a while is saying no when I ask if he is a bad boy, it's so darn cute :) I think the Wiggles are fading away a bit, he has a new obsession called Wow!Wow!Wubzy!, he calls it whoa whoa whoa. There really is much he is doing now that I could type a book about it, basically my baby is a toddler now and growing into his own little perso nand I am enjoying every minute of it, but it so bittersweet.
****SK girls**** hopefully you guys read my blog because I wanted to say that I miss you guys:( I havent been able to post nearly as much as I was because my interent is sucking lately. It takes SOOOO long for anything to load so I kind of just give up on it after a while. But hopefully the problem is fixed soon, because I miss chatting
Things are fine on the home front now :) No more arguing, and I think we got the issues sorted out. I think we both just had a lot of stuff bottled up since he came home. Plus, I think I am having a harder time then him adjusting to him being home. It's not that I don't want him here, but I enjoyed all the time to myself, it might sound selfish, but it is kind of hard to explain any other way.
BTW, I'm going to keep my posts below there, I was going to erase them so people don't think I am psycho, but it IS how I felt when I wrote them so they shall remain.
Off subject BUT we finally got our rebate check!! WOO HOO! It took long enough lol but it came just in time because mama needs some new clothes! I am having withdrawls from Old Navy and Kohl's.
Almost done, just wanted to add that I really can't stand Sarah Palin, I'm sick of hearing about her and her interview with Charles Gibson was a joke. She got caught up in so many lies and still couldnt admit to to them, just beating around the bush on the subject. and I am sick of hearing how she is the typical soccer mom, working and taking care of kids. I havent even seen her infant son in her arms ONCE, I havent seen her even so much acknowledge her kids in public. one word...FAKE, well 2 words...FAKE BITCH :)
I hope everyone regrets their choice for Obama after hearing Clinton's speech last night. She is just what this country needed, not Obama, not McCain, but Clinton. I dont care if they have similar views of things, Hillary's compassion is what makes her the better choice, just sad it is too late for this election, but we always have 4 years from now :)
FYI, I like Obama BUT Clinton wasa much better choice
So last night we decided to go out to eat to get some family time outside of the house. We picked a really great Japanese restaurant that I LOVE! We thought Adrien might enjoy watching the guy cook, which he did. Well anyways, the table seats 8 so it was us and a family of 6 at our table. They were from Michigan in town visiting their daughter. Well the dad was sitting next to Ryan and they started talking and it came out that Ryan was in the Army and the guy automatically thanked him for his service. He asked about his tours to Iraq and Afghanistan and stuff like that. Well the dinner was about to end and the man slipped Ryan $20 under his plate and of course Ryan told him that he couldn't except it and the man insisted that he take it, he even said he would pay for our entire bill if he could and the $20 was the least he could do. So we ended up paying $20 for a Japanese dinner, which is great considering our bill would have been $40 for 2 people :)
This actually isn't the first time this has happened either. We went out to dinner in Mebane with Ryan's aunt and uncle to celebrate him being home back in April and his aunt knew the manager because they go there so much and she told him what we were celebrating and he let us eat and drink for FREE. We had a $75 bill that he let us have on the house, I couldn't believe it. Even though these strangers are so generous, Ryan really don't like all the attention being put on him like that. I guess you view all of this differently through a soldiers eyes. They really do see it as their job and have a hard time being put on the spot like that, he doesn't feel like he is any more special than anyone else I guess. But really, him and all the soldiers that fight for our country are extra special to me :)
This stuff with Russia and Georgia is kind of scary to me, they say they aren't sending US troops over there, but what if they decide to? The thought of that scares the crap out of me.
A little off topic, but those Chinese gymnasts are NOT 16!
Oh, and I don't feel like making dinner, ugh!
I believe I am the only person in the world that does not enjoy being a stay at home mom. It really has nothing to do with Adrien, I love being with him and being the one to take care of him, but I hate sitting at home!!!!!! I hate this stupid routine that I am stuck in, and to make things worse I have had to cut back on my addiction (shopping) so we can save some money, double UGHHH!! I developed this huge addiction because of the deployment, all I did was shop to keep me busy, and I probably did this everyday, it honestly made me forget about everything and made me feel better, and I don't use the word "addiction" lightly, I seriously had withdraws when Ryan came home.
If I wanted to get out of the apartment then I would probably be stuck working in a store or some place where all my co-workers are 16. Been there done that, I want something more for myself but I have no idea what. I never knew what I wanted to be when I "grew up" when I was little, and I still have no idea! I think I'll just join the Army......ok, I'm really not serious with that :)
Oh yeah, 2 more days until my baby boy's first birthday :) All I have to say is, WOW ::sniff::sniff::
Well the loan officer called us and we found out we have to work on a few things before she sends our info to the banks. We found out that Ryan has a judgement on his credit report! We can thank his ex-wife for that because we also found out that when she rented a trailer she put it in his name when he was deployed in 2003 and she did NOT have power of attorney, well she dint pay some rent on it. So we have to call this property place and explain to them what had happened and if they are unwilling to drop it then we will have to take them to court along with his ex for fraud. The realtor will pay for this too because they are the ones that let her rent a property in his name. She could have very well gotten a false POA, but either way someone is going to court. We are also still paying off furniture that she financed in his name also, furniture that he has NEVER seen. Oh and an interesting fact..me and Ryan have the same exact credit score, kind of weird seeing as I have only 3 things on mine and he has like 20 on his, but luckily the score isn't too bad thank god, I don't feel like worry about that too.
On a brighter note...I picked out the cutest cake for Adrien today :) We're getting it from good ol' Wally World and it is going to be perfect! I cant believe it's getting so close, it feels so weird saying I have a one year old, makes him seem so grown. The walking doesn't help either, he rarely crawls anymore, he loves to walk all around the house and get into everything!
Well, hopefully! We talked to a loan person today and we find out tomorrow how much and if we were approved for a loan for a new house!! We were going to wait until our lease was up (mar 09') but I am really sick of the the apartment life, this is the 3rd one we have lived in since we have been married. There is no storage space, well we have a storage closet on our balcony but it is not enough room to house or crap and Ryan's Army crap, you wouldn't believe how much he has. My neighbors have a big part in this too, I really cant stand them, I might even say I hate them, well their dogs really. I hate small dogs, their high pitch, whiny bark is the most aggravating sound in the world. I sit on my balcony sometimes and picture them falling off of the their balcony, just see a little doggy fly by. OK, I am going to hell but I get aggravated easily.
Oh, and I might be going back to school!!!!!!!!! I have to call tomorrow to set some stuff up and see if I can get into this program that is completely FREE for me :) Wish me luck
Off to watch my DVR'ed episodes of Tori & Dean and Gene Simmons :)
Adrien's birthday is in 2 weeks and I have bought NOTHING for it yet! I still don't know where I am going to do it, I can't do it at my apartment because it would be too small, we don't even have a kitchen table, just a bar and stools. It will probably end up being at my moms so I don't think I will invite a lot of people. I just want to get a picture of him opening presents and eating so he can look back on it one day, it's not like he will ever remember it, I don't know why people make such big deals out of first birthdays, ugh.
On another note, I am the most tired person in the world right now! At least I feel like it. I have the most inconsiderate neighbors (above me) ever! They were hammering, that's right hammering, at midnight 2 nights ago. Then last night they let their dogs cry forever. I had to get the broom out and get ghetto with them lol it worked though. I banged on the ceiling about 5 times and all the noise stopped. I know they hate me, I have called on them twice to complain about their dogs and they ALWAYS give me dirty looks when I am outside he he. I don't live in the ghetto and I am not paying as much as I do to be disturbed like this so I wont take it. There should be rules that people with dogs can only live in downstairs apartments and if they cant do that then I think I should have been told that 2 ankle biter dogs were living above me BEFORE I moved in, I never would have stepped foot in here if I were told that. Thankfully we are only living here until out lease is up, I cant wait to get into a house!
I hate my scale! Or maybe it hates me?? After working so hard to lose all that weight I have been set back...far back. I somehow managed to gain 14 damn pounds! This is crazy and extremely depressing might I add. I'm sure that Zaxby's I ate last night didn't help me either. Luckily I got a run in yesterday and I am feeling a little better and I hope I get back on the right track and stay there. I'm so sick of worrying about my weight, why does it have to be that important? The thing is that I don't care what people think of me, honestly I don't. This is really just me not feeling good about myself and I want to lose the weight for me, I want to feel healthy and good about myself for once in my life. I wish there was a ban on fast food, soda, and anything with corn syrup in it. I really wouldn't mind if it were all made illegal and production stopped on these evil products. I just don't have the willpower to act like they don't exist unfortunately. Maybe I should get hypnotized?
Anyone want to donate for my lipo, tummy tuck and boob job?? OK, I know you don't but it doesn't hurt to ask :)
